----`100% Ben Tan``----

2009-01-11T03:44:00.000+08:00

Have you ever fallen for a friend?
Trying so hard, but the dreams wont end?
No escaping the cruel fate
That you and her would never date
Day in day out it gets stronger
You cant find a reason to tell you she's the wrong girl
Trying very hard to contain your feelings
Keep telling yourself she's just a buddy
While deep inside, feeling it's muddy
Love is a very special word to use
But between it and friendship, which would you choose?
A simple glance turns to a stare
You just want to show that you really care
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that she's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for her to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being her guy is an impossible wish...

-B.T.-

2009-01-04T03:43:00.002+08:00

genting trip made me open my eyes to stuff.

person A: "You call yourself a christian when you dont even attend church."
me: "i do attend church."
A: "really meh? i call you on sundays you always at home leh"
me: "how many times you call me on sundays?"
A: "TWO TIMES!"
me: "so you're baseing your facts on two days out of so many others in the year?"
A: "wadever la. some christian you are."

lets make things clear that i do attend new creation church. if you do not follow me 24/7/365, i do suggest you rethink of questioning my faith in God.

person A is a christian too, which makes me all the more disappointed that he can actually say that. well done person A. well done. kudos to you for making me reach a new low.

person B: "you call yourself a christian, ben, why do you not say prayer before eating?"
me: "did you SEE me not giving grace?"
B: "you never wad."

i didn even want to reply at that time. yes i DID say grace. but those of you who know me, my grace is usually real short. just thanking God for the food and asking him to bless it for the nourishment for my body. amen. a short close of eyes, and whisper in my heart, which i think is enough, made some people see me as a fake christian.

person A: "you call yourself a christian but do not act like one. are you really one?"

take note that person A is a sinner, like me, like everyone.

my reply to you is that being a christian does not mean acting like an angel. Being a christian is in believing in Jesus Christ and God the father. Yes, i do have my flaws, but that's all human nature.

i am really feeling very down after those two said these things to me.

and im talking about two people whom ive been friends for over 6 years here.

2008-10-14T22:59:00.002+08:00

im sorry if it's in my character to leave it late.
im sorry if sometimes i take things too lightly
im sorry if i over play
im sorry if im a 1 pointer and you're a near 4.

congrats for keeping me uninformed about this till now
congrats for kinda spoiling my day
congrats for likely ending this friendship
congrats for everything else that's not coming to my mind.

we could have talked it out. see how things can work. with everyone happy at the end of the day.

2008-10-03T22:24:00.001+08:00

something interesting for a boring day....

Before the Battle of Agincourt in 1415, the French, anticipating victory over the English, proposed to cut off the middle

finger of all captured English soldiers. Without the middle finger it would be impossible to draw the renowned English

longbow and therefore they would be incapable of fighting in the future. This famous English longbow was made of the

native English Yew tree, and the act of drawing the longbow was known as "plucking the yew" (or "pluck yew" .

Much to the bewilderment of the French, the English won a major upset and began mocking the French by waving their

middle fingers at the defeated French, saying, See, we can still pluck yew! Since 'pluck yew' is rather difficult to say, the

difficult consonant cluster at the beginning has gradually changed to a labiodentals fricative F', and thus the words often

used in conjunction with the one-finger-salute! It is also because of the pheasant feathers on the arrows used with the

longbow that the symbolic gesture is known as "giving the bird."

IT IS STILL AN APPROPRIATE SALUTE TO THE FRENCH TODAY!

And yew thought yew knew every plucking thing.

2008-10-02T23:05:00.003+08:00

and so now the 700billion buyout plan is finally accepted. but what actually made the guys in the jury decide that the first ever plan was rejected. the dow jones is finally picking up abit after it's scary decline. seriously this plunge is the most shocking one in years liao. as much as -700 points in A DAY. wow that's serious shit.

the govt has launched a ban on short selling stocks few weeks ago. good plan imo to stop the rot. for those who dont know what's short selling, basically it means "selling" a number of shares at a point, and hoping the stocks to plunge before buying it back. easy money, but a real disadvantage if you cant manage to sell the shares on the day itself. that would mean that the company can charge you anything they want for the shares you buy. and yes, that means you're in deep shit once again.

but why is shorting bad? this is because it makes the value of the company to plunge. shorties, they call them. the pain in the normal buyers ass. (somehow i kinda love this way of playing though ^^)

anyway back to the topic.

this would just be a start for the major crisis to come. why?

Just like in the previous big crisis (Latin American debt crisis in 1980s, Asian financial crisis in 1997/98), the current sub-prime crisis in the US since mid-2007 is just the tip of a huge iceberg.
This time, it's not just a US crisis but going to deteriorate into a global one, one so messy and huge that dwarfs the 2 crises mentioned above and one which most of us still alive on earth have never seen in our life time.
This is because from 2000-2007, the world economy has been sustained, to a large extent, by the economic bubble formed as a result of the easy monetary and FX policies of US Fed and most of the central banks around the world.
The huge US trade and current account deficits of US$50-60 billion per month or US$600-700 billion per year for the past 8 years is a reflection of the inapt monetary and FX policies around the world. 8xUS$600 billion = US$4.8 trillion. Inadvertently, this gross economic imbalance in the world economy is beginning to rear its ugly head after the loose policies have run their courses (forming an asset bubble) and the economic cycle has began to turn down.
The tail end of the bubble had seen rampant speculation in commodity prices and caused high inflation in 2007-2008 as huge funds shifted away from traditional assets which had rocketed to bubble level and begun to burst.
High inflation is a prelude to a recession because rapidly increases in price indicate economic imbalance which will result in drastic re-allocation of resources in the economy, causing economic disruptions as consumers change their spending habits radically to cope with the new circumstances.
The World economy is today much more integrated and connected than it has been ever in the past. The huge US current account deficits are also the surpluses of the rest of the world. Instead of letting their currencies appreciate steadily against the US$ and tightening monetary policies to avoid building up of a bubble similar to the one US was creating, the central banks at the rest of the world were more concerned with maintaining short-term growth with easy monetary and FX policies in tandem with the US than preventing a formation of a bubble.
So the US and the rest of the world had been in a cozy relationship of using easy monetary and FX policies to sustain domestic economic growth. As a result, stock markets and property prices in UK, rest of Europe, China, Australia, New Zealand, Hong Kong, Singapore etc. went up dramatically as huge amount of international funds fueled by liquidity go around the world snapping up assets.
Some (ignorant) people have argued for loose monetary and FX policies based on the simplistic reasoning that they sustain international competitiveness, promote growth and create employment. I say that these people are simplistic because they are obviously not aware that :
1) Excessively loose monetary and FX policies are like ecstasy pills. When taken, they create temporary highs : rapid growth, increasing huge profits, brisk business and constructions, soaring property and stock markets, and high labour employment. However, once their effects have run their courses, you will experience very painful lows which are below what you would normally feel if you have not taken the pill.
2) Soaring asset prices have an effect of increasing money supply further and cause high inflation as prices of things are always relative and interconnected : for e.g., rentals are increased to justify the high price the property/land can fetch in the market and the positive one-off wealth effect on assets holders increase their ability and willingness to pay for the goods and services they desire.
3) A recession will follow high inflation subsequently because rapidly increasing prices means that resources in the economy will be re-allocated as people change their consumption patterns and this disrupts economic activities.
The aftermath of excessively loose monetary policies is the reversal of the earlier boost and is very ugly : people caught with having bought assets at very high prices, systemic banking failure as lots of money loaned out to even previously financially sound companies become irrecoverable or doubtful, closure of over-expanded businesses, loss of jobs etc. No one will be spared as even companies which are otherwise viable for the long term will also be affected and may fail because of their inability to tie over this short-term tumultuous period.
The destructive power of excessively loose monetary and FX policies cannot be overstated and the economy may regress back to a few years ago and then stagnate or experience very slow growth and employment for a long period of time as the debris of the aftermath get cleaned out. For e.g. Latin America in the early 1990s was only back to the same level as they were in the early 1980s before their debt crisis. Indonesia, Malaysia, Thailand and Philippines etc. in 2004 were also worse than they were in 1997 before the Asian financial crisis. Even supposedly sound economies like Singapore and Hong Kong also staggered during 1998-2004 before the ecstasy boost started in 2005. At the end of it, you’re worse off than without taking the pill.
2008 is actually a year of stagflation : negative real growth + inflation. Real inflation has been understated and if real inflation for the past year has been correctly assessed, real growth would have been slightly negative already for many countries.
Before the US economy goes into a tailspin later, the current mild financial upheaval in the US has already started to create fear in other financial markets and economies. This contagion effect is similar to that seen for other crises and can be expected to spread further, creating uncontrollable panic around the world. It’s all part of human psychology. This economic fear, exacerbated by the expected sharp slow down in the US economy, will cause the huge exports to the US to be adversely affected. The rest of the world will also go into a recession, deteriorating into a global financial and economic disaster.
Now and the next couple of years are the aftermath of the earlier loose monetary and FX polices around the world and for not allowing the world economy to balance itself back first in 2005.
The worst of the crisis will not happen overnight but will take many months to unfold.

this is a super duper wall of text, i know, but i got carried away i guess lol.
so what are we gonna expct from the days to come? no one knows for sure... but all i can say is that we must be prepared for a huge bombshell. this is because Singapore's STI index, if you noticed, is really a share that follows the Dow Jones index. Similar to the Japan Nikkei and Korea's Kospi, which you see are freefalling too.

would this spell the end of the USA reign for the financial powerhouse role and give china/india the chance to imprint their mark? maybe, maybe not. but what i believe is that China would one day rise up to be good enough to compete against the powerful dow jones index and win. could this be the time? i dont think so. but its gonna be soon.

ok that's more than enough of my rant on what ive learnt from my dad this holiday. lol time for my story.

went to lim's house to tennis/gym/swim. jiahan and sok came too.

seriously very long time since i've seen sok. nice body he has now. haiz compard to mine ah.. haha i ish very beh kan. lol. anyway dunno what's wrong with jiahan he suddenly left us. =/

tennis was fun. number of lost balls count has dropped to 1 for me today. good number considering the last time was 4 i think. lol! horrible la me. nvm improving with tennis skills.

anyway i have a deep cut in my knee thanks to lim and sok forcing me to climb this wall and me failing (and falling) from it. ouch. landed in the swimming pool tho, and thus we started swimming.

after that as lim went up to bathe me and sok went to try the steam bath. shuang is shuang la must admit, but it got too hot that i felt that i was a frog in boiling waters. so went out and had a cold shower. best shower ive taken in ages man.

lim wanted to drink all of a sudden so we decided to WALK all the way to beauty world dat side to grab dinner and at the same time get some booze. went to eat at five star chicken rice, where sok wierdly ordered HK beehoon (or xin zhou mee fen). so our food came and we tucked in. all except one guy.... sok of course.

HE WAS PLAYING WITH HIS FOOD.

goodness! but okay la he was doin what i usually do also. which is removing all the vege and beansprouts. hahaha

stuff was kinda boring after that as we sat down and drank abit while talking about old times and it was back to home..

not sure what im gonna do tmr but definately im gonna make the most out of my remainding holiday time :D

2008-09-30T03:27:00.001+08:00

Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind;
And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind.

2008-09-30T02:57:00.003+08:00

The angel who lost her wings

Wings tattered and torn
She lies in the corner
Tired and worn
She breathes slow

Waiting for anybody
To save her
Any single body, anyone worthy
To rescue her

She's the angel who lost her wings
With no place to go
Walking on the streets
Would someone find her?

An angel she was long ago
And what a happy and blissful time
Happiness she now has to forgo
With emptyness in her heart

Mend her wings,
Mend her heart
Don't take her things
Don't take her away.

i heard that electricity prices have shot up once again thanks to the oil prices.

after much consideration i have finally came to a conclusion on how our government rules the country. smart actually... by giving a little bit first before taking a whole lot more from the people. sounds familar? there was a cash rebate of less than five hundred recently, and erp gantries started popping up here and there.

it's really sad to see my parents, and every other adult ranting about how this country is getting difficult to live in.

it's really scary to think how much would be a simple chicken rice cost you when you're grown up.

things can be different. why are the top leaders earning so much? by what they accomplish? nah. it's because they CONTROL everything... including their own salary. look how much george w bush is earning for being president and compare that to what our dear PM~ is earning. ouch. really hurts to see him proclaim that his salary justifies his work.

money money money... must be funny in a rich man's world.
looks like money is no longer funny in singapore.
:(

pardon this rant.
too much time reading up on politics and stocks liao.. lol

soccer tmr. cant wait. about time i went back to exercising too

2008-09-26T02:23:00.001+08:00

its been rather long since i posted liao..

nothing much been going on these few days. lol..

very tired liao la. bb.

2008-09-21T07:24:00.002+08:00

new song uploaded.

best chill out song. e.v.e.r.

enjoy.

Just Feel Better - Carlos Santana feat Steven Tyler of Aerosmith

She said I feel stranded
And I can't tell anymore
If I'm coming or I'm going
It's not how I planned it
I've got a key to the door
But it just won't open

And I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
That life happens for a reason
I don't, I don't, I don't
Because it never worked before
But this time, this time

I'm gonna try anything to just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

And I can't find my way
Girl I need a change
And I do anything to just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

She said I need you to hold me
I'm a little far from the shore
And I'm afraid of sinking
You're the only one who knows me
And who doesn't ignore
That my soul is weeping

I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
Everything must have a season
Round and round it goes
And every day's the one before
But this time, this time

I'm gonna try anything that just feels better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

I can't find my way
God I need a change
And I'd do anything to just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

I'm tired of holding on
To all the things I ought to leave behind, yeah
It's really getting old, and
I think I need a little help this time!

Yeah

[Guitar solo]

I'm gonna try anything to just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

And I can't find my way
God I need a change
And I do anything to just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

edit: bucket list and i am legend dl-ed for someone liao hahaha ^^

2008-09-21T06:19:00.000+08:00

just came back from outing with 2c'ers!

gonna run liao... tata!

2008-09-20T04:51:00.003+08:00

The box.......

A cardboard box it was formed by
By which nobody knows why

All he wanted was a hug
But other boxes treated him like a bug

He left boxland,
wondering when he'd get that hug he oh so craved
No other box ever left home,
he was brave

All he wanted was a warm embrace
Would you fulfill his dream? For this hero of the box race?

wrote this for yunrong few days back out of randomness. lol.
outing with 2c peeps tmr. real long time since ive seen them liao. guess time really passes fast. it's been around 4 years since we separated as a class.
getting late liao. its 5AM =/

would you fulfill my dream?

2008-09-19T18:41:00.000+08:00

i think i love you....

my heart, it feels like my chest can barely contain it...
like it doesnt belong to me anymore...
it belongs to you.
and if you wanted it, i wish for nothing in exchange.
no gifts, no goods, no demonstrations of devotion.
nothing but knowing you love me too.
just your heart..
in exchange for mine.

2008-09-19T00:22:00.005+08:00

lets have some fairytales.........

The Ugly Duckling

adaption by myself =)

In the lake of ducks in Notredame
Lived an ugly greyish one
From an unknown heritage she was
The other ducklings treated her as moss

Her fellow ducklings, Jack, Will, Kate, Jane
Poked fun at him constantly, reminding him of her name.
"The ugly duckling", she was called by them
Ugly he was. Ugly when life began.

The bullying continued every day
Bullying and name calling in every way.
Till one day Jack pecked it till it bled
Crying, the ugly ducking fled

Years in the pond past
And the ducks did not hear of it at last.
Duckling to duck they grew
And a generation had started anew.

Till one day a stranger came
"Your name please! Tell us your name!"
The stranger said not a word
Then spread her wings like a bird.

Unvealing a majestic looking one
One which Will recognised as a swan
"I'm the ugly ducking", said the one who had been,
"No you're not!" Jack said, "You're a queen!"

Staring at Jack with cold black eyes
The swan showed the scar to him, frozen as ice.
Shocked turned to regret for Jack
As he realised that she was indeed the one he called Black.

Then she flapped her wings and joined them in the pond
The very same pond Jack broke her bond
"Ugly duckling I am no more"
"But who are this ugly ducks? One, two, three, four?"

At that moment the four wished to hide
For in the swan, they saw pure white
Beauty was all they could see
As they snapped into reality.

Then with almost a singing voice the swan spoke
"Your words broke me, and tied me up like a rope"
"I thought I'd never see the sun"
"Thanks to you guys," looking at them one by one

People reading please understand
This story applies to many men
Watch what you say and do
For maybe one day, your words might just come haunt you.

--Benjamin Tan--

2008-09-18T07:02:00.005+08:00

--ON THE 25TH STOREY--

On the 25th storey
Stood a young man with a sad story
On the ledge of the building
His eyes tearing, his heart burning.

He jumps off.

23 floors to the bottom,
He thinks about the trouble he had gotten
The stocks have crashed down
All his cash have drown.

He continues his desent down.
He sees the whole world.

Reaching the 17th storey
The young man wonders about his honey
What is Jessie gonna feel?
This is not any fictional story or reel.

The wind on his face.
The joy of flying.
The irony.

On the 10th floor
He almost sees heaven's door
A tinge of regret, he felt
Money's a situation he could have dealt.

The ground is fast approaching
Any talk of the afterlife
He's gonna experience what's gonna happen
First hand.

Flying down to five
Pictures flying past. Pictures of his life
So it's true
Your life really flashes past you when you're due

"Goodbye, good world"
He braises himself for impact
He closes his eyes.
And heard a dull thud
Silence.

A crowd gathers around
A young man, his soul heaven abound.
His smashed up face hidden
The emotion of regret written

Shouts of "Oh my God!"
A boy whips out his camera phone and snaps a picture
Aunties shaking their head in disbelief
Girls hugging their boyfriends in fear
Soon the police comes and clears the scene
And once again life goes on.

The young man wakes
A light shining on his face
Hark! The angels all in song
For a man who's life went so wrong.

And the young man felt peace finally.
He smiles as he walks into the glorious lights.

--Benjamin Tan--
7:06AM 18th Sept

later gotta go school make dough for some ass presentation for some china university.

bloody waste of time. bloody waste of HOLIDAY time.

2008-09-18T07:01:00.001+08:00

this blog is so dead.

oh wait, the blog was not living for starters. -.-

going poems on it from nao on.

to the few who read, enjoy =)

2007-09-30T00:20:00.000+08:00

Haiku for starters
Remember five, seven, five
And have fun with them.

shit im getting really random my the minute.

the only reason for me to be happy is to look forward to seeing you again.

2007-09-29T00:29:00.000+08:00

Love is a aromatic cup of tea
Love can hurt like a stinging bee.

Love is left,
Love is right.
Love is dark,
Love is bright.

Love is sweet, yet bitter
Love is summer, yet winter.

Love is a never ending rhyme
Love does wonders to time
Love would really make one weep
Love would make a heart bleed.

Love is 1 plus 1
Love makes it possible for 2 becoming 1

Love does wonders to me
Guys, that's love, one, two, three.

-Benjamin Tan-

2007-09-17T20:40:00.001+08:00

我要离去别再哭泣
不要伤心请你相信我
要等待我的爱
陪你永不离开
因为会有那么一天
我们牵著手在草原
听鸟儿歌唱的声音
听我说声我爱你

2007-09-06T04:17:00.000+08:00

okay! so i went to malaysia today with lim. jus a normal day trip there ba.. shopped quite abit. and bought: 1 shoe, 2 shirts, 2 pants and 7 PIRATED CDS!

k i know i shouldn be saying about the cds here but well~ who really cares ya?

omg dunkin' donuts really DO rock. tried one and was in heaven. so decided to get a box of 12 back to singapore (which i finished the next day, btw). damn.. there goes my evening run yesterday. aiya heck la.

forgot to bring camera over so no pics for today.

anyway there was this small scare over at the immigration checkpoint back to singapore.
my passport reader seemed to cock up and didn allow me to pass, so okay lor, go to manual stamping guy.

than jus nice the SYSTEM FREAKING HANG!

so proceeded BACK to the automatic gates, which let me through.

technology these days are getting really fucked up. just like msn la! forever getting cocked.

oh ya. talking about msn, jus had a chat with ky.. she seemed pretty stressed over stuff. but nvm! ben's here =D

she was researching on some plate movements btw. i suggested going to her kitchen =/

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Man.. i miss e old times =D

anyway back to immigration. after scanning my bag and plastic bag(s)

this policewoman come and stop me sia!

okay freak scared.

lim told me b4 that if i kenna caught he'd not know me at that point, some time before we were going out of malaysia.

hmph. some friend. hahahaha

so i hid cds between my new pants!

and mrs policewoman DIDN FIND IT!

whoohoo.

okay la.. mayb is cause of my "what are u stopping me for?? i know nothing!" face shown at her but well~ aiya.. my hiding skills too pro liao la. hai.. cannot blame cannot blame.

HAHAHAHA

galahad asked me to play fatal frame 3 at night, which is NO WAI!

cannot la.. i got weak heart.. but well, e game rocks nonetheless.

it's 4:12 am right now and im supposed to meet shuin and robert at sls at 1. jialat la.. die liao.

okay signing off now! uploading pics tml or something? yeapp..

tata!

oh yes. ebay really rocks. can find lots of steals there =D

2007-09-05T22:19:00.000+08:00

he looked on to the blue sky, half lit by the sun, setting in the horizon. "it's over", he thought to himself.

then, he smiled. and walked away from it all.

2007-09-03T21:10:00.000+08:00

When I sit ands think about you

And all the magical things you do

I search the depths of my mind

To find out why I think of you all the time

I think I know what the answer could be

To this heartfelt mystery

Yes, I do know how I fell

Under the wonders of your love spell

When I met you, right from the start

Honey, I knew you had my heart

With a pair of bewitching eyes

You took my heart by surprise

Lips that resemble a red nectar so sweet

Desire told me mine had to meet

And when I heard your spellbinding voice

My heart leaped high with rejoice

When you entranced me with your personality

It was then you totally had me

Now my resistance has been made frail

By the power of your love spell

A sorceress of the heart you are

For you have enchanted my heart by far

Like a magician with a bag of tricks

You pulled out your love, and made it stick

Captured I am by your love so mystical

What I feel for you is much deeper than physical

Such a strong spell over my heart you cast

My wish is forever that it will last.........

2007-09-03T12:30:00.000+08:00

What are goals?

Everyone has goals in life. Be it to get that new car, to achieve fantastic grades or to even earn his 1st million bucks. Goals are set everyday by everyone. Grab someone who's walking on the street and chances are he has something in mind to do for the day.

Goals are not possibly long term. Say, u wake up and tell yourself that u're gonna accomplish something for the day. more or less that's considered one too.

What are dreams then?

Dreams are more or less unachievable goals in life. say, "i dream of flying" is theoretically possible if u get on an plane and take off. but still the thought cant be taken seriously, or we'd be seeing people jumping off buildings with their hands desperately flapping, possibly singing a rendition of "I believe i can fly" at the same time.

Sometimes, it's our dreams and goals that push us on. but sometimes, it's our goals and dreams that would ultimately kill us. it depends, really. as of from the movie, the prestige, obsession from a goal led to a character's downfall.

I'm pondering over this now, how the power of hopes and dreams are so strong in our everyday lives.

haha random post la.. but well, i write what i think. ^^

2007-09-02T22:53:00.001+08:00

2007-08-30T17:15:00.000+08:00

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but im not.

2007-08-30T17:07:00.000+08:00

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Now playing: 五月天 - 天使
via FoxyTunes

2007-07-08T15:33:00.000+08:00

jus drank a bottle of Yakult

E.coli in the drink... GO AND KILL THE VIRUSES! GARRRRRRRRR!!!!

上吧！VIRUSES，出死吧！他妈的。

2007-07-08T14:45:00.001+08:00

im sick sick sick.
im having a headache
my body feels cold yet hot.
im having a sore throat
i am hungry, yet im not.

im sick sick sick
im uncomfortable all over
felt tired yet i couldn't sleep
i im giddy
im walking now like some sheep. (Baa baa!)

im sick sick sick.
get lost, stupid virus
or its no more mr nice guy.

RAWR. I BITE.

random poem churned out now. crap man... it's like i jus learnt viruology on thurs and im getting a live example on how it feels to be attacked. ARGG!

2007-07-07T01:23:00.000+08:00

梁静茹：分手快乐

我无法帮你预言委曲求全有没有用
可是我多么不舍朋友爱得那么苦痛
爱可以不问对错至少有喜悦感动
如果他总为别人撑伞你何苦非为他等在雨中
泡咖啡让你暖手想挡挡你心口里的风
你却想上街走走吹吹冷风会清醒得多
你说你不怕分手只有一点遗憾难过
情人节就要来了剩自己一个
其实爱对了人情人节每天都过
分手快乐祝你快乐你可以找到更好的
不想过冬厌倦沉重就飞去热带的岛屿游泳
分手快乐请你快乐挥别错的才能和对的相逢
离开旧爱像坐慢车看透撤了心就会是晴朗的
没人能把谁的幸福没收你发誓你会活的有笑容
你自信时候真的美多了

wonder who would be happy after a breakup sia.. haha this song is real nice tho.. quite old liao but who cares.

2007-07-04T00:46:00.000+08:00

random picture time!

im saving up for one of those.

whoever did this is definately anti-manu.

u know u're definately screwed when u see this when driving on the road..

nokia finally made a phone which could really threaten the likes of samsung and LG. a whole new meaning to killing off your phone call.

2007-07-02T22:09:00.000+08:00

today early day..

woke up late so skipped maths ^^

anyway, after school, me, pey lih, shipei and jie sheng went amk kbox..

wahh the place quite out of the blue sia.. suddenly got this tiny lift @ the coffee shop which brings us up there..

the 1st few songs went well... i hope.. haha at least never zao sia can liao la.. haha

than js started solo singing... wah lau he sound like jay chou sia... in the way he sticks his words all together.. haha! the gals there luffing like MAD!

Pl and Sp then had the idea of standing on the chair and singing... haha wahh not bad sia.. like in some concert.. dunno why suddenly js started hugging onto my bag and the mike sia!! haha!

than when singing 曹操 dat time we went totally mad and starting singing randomly.. omg man.. super paiseh when some ppl stop outside our room and like look into it la!! hahaha! confirm must be saying that WE SUCK! but NVM! as long as we know WE DONT CAN LIAO! HAHA.

me and js dueted 千里自外, or however it's spelt in chinese... i was supposed to sing jay's part.. than in the end both started singing fei yu qing's part la! haha SO FUN SIA! HIS VOICE THEY PUT HIM FOR GALS TO SING DE! HAHAHA.

in a moment of randomness, we started singing some chinese new year song! omg man...

than in the middle of singing, the waiteress come in to take away our empty jar ma.. than like got silence leh! haha until when she leave than start singing again!

lol.

yupp i guess that's about all for today!

tata!

2007-06-29T22:37:00.000+08:00

yet another random poem.

this time an epic one

the ancient ones
emerge and run,
in chaos' full eruption.
an evil band
in every land,
delighting in destruction.

what seems shapless,
formless and faceless
their great one is releasing.
so to enslave
both God and knave,
their sorrows thus increasing.

who is the man
to stay the land
of those he Gods cant better?
and yet a hero yet
takes the bet
to break the evil's fetter.

three lights of hope
to help him cope
one south, in sand and wonder.
one to the east
defeat the beast,
and tear their plan asunder.

the final light
will make the figh
where he must face his fears.
a door agar
he travels far
and yet, finds it near...

enjoy.

2007-06-26T00:55:00.000+08:00

gonna update about saturday's pool trip after CTs.. haha sry

anyway today was a damn suay day la.. after phy chem test (which was kinda screwed), me, js, hs, joice, xj and amin went to koufu to eat and do our reports.. than we realised the reports could be handed up on friday =.=

then, pissed off as we were liao, we decided to still hand in the reports today and just get done with it. so we proceded to the photocopying shoppe to photocopy our graphs.

that's where i realised my fucking report has gone missing. it couldn be at the table which we sat on @ koufu cause before leaving i checked if there was anything missing. and there wasnt.

knn than call ong chee ming he dun really believe wad i say. also dun blame him la.. where got student come out with such a lame excuse de. unless it's real, duh.

ok than nvm. go library study awhile than go home.

on the train home there was this two old men behind me talking damn loudly. so okay lor. put on mp3 and hear. than at tiong they wanna alight. cause one of the old men was pushing a trolley with lots of stuff on, i siam-ed lor. give them space to move. but jus nice when i siam than accidently hit onto the other old man. knn than he see me like not happy likedat.

wad i do wrong sia. give space for the trolley to move than u to dao me. might as well dun give a shit about u two old fucks la?!

after u all complain to straits times say youths this days are getting rude again. fuck off man. do this cannot, do that cannot. u might as well go die better la. dun need to get angry with ppl anymore. stupid old men.. ruin my mood.

im gona sleep liao. tml inorganic chem. confirm fail also. haha the last of my sub that im gonna fail.

tata

2007-06-24T20:44:00.000+08:00

in the clouds
all is seen
by the eyes
child, divine

in the heavens
all alive
angels sing
breathe the life

in the sky
all is well
earthly sorrows
fade from view

in the clouds
there's a smile
on a face
face of you

2007-06-22T15:22:00.000+08:00

it's really hard to be a friend when.....

1) u try to CARE but they dun care about you.
2) u wanna be near them but they keep their distance
3) u talk, but nobody listens
4) u walk in a group but nobody even realises u're there
5) people leave you out in everything
6) u share your secrets with her, but she never shares back
7) in a 4 person conversation, no one talks to u at all
8) u always feel left out
9) u ARE always left out
10)your friends dun feel anything when they're reading this post

2007-06-22T15:21:00.000+08:00

as usual i woke up late today, so cant go nyp study >.<

2007-06-21T07:48:00.000+08:00

im blogging this b4 i head to microbio remedial..

yea.. tts kinda lame.

ive been awake for the whole night studyin but felt like ive not absorbed much... hope i didn waste my time sia... nvm then..

i'll try not to sleep in microbio. ive drank 3 cups of coffee =D

bugis later on for project discussion. with luck, i'll be early.

tata.

2007-06-19T22:35:00.000+08:00

vanessa koh introed me to this webbie which scans faces and tells u which celeb looks like u. and erm.. i got 80% with this gal celeb =/

2007-06-19T00:10:00.000+08:00

nothing to blog about.. so gonna post random pics today.

this is cool.

grahhh... if only we had snow in s'pore

HOT DOGS!

2007-06-17T01:27:00.000+08:00

ive jus realised that i have not been talking to my parents much lately and i dun really feel comfortable about it.

it's like.. since the start of the holidays ive been going out from morning till night. when i go out, they have gone to work and when i come back they are sound asleep. the only time i get to talk to my mum is this:

*phone rings*
"hello?"

"ben ah.. u coming back for dinner not?"

"erm.. dun think so la.."

"okay take care. God bless."

"kk bye"
*puts down phone*

im getting the feeling that somehow im drifting away from my parents and i don't like it.

wadever it is, they're still family and deserves my time spent so ive made up my mind to try my very best to come back for dinner and stuff the following week.
yupp.. that's about it.
tata

cheers

2007-06-14T23:33:00.000+08:00

now that's the shit right there. bizzy is one hell of a pro freestyler. knn.. he singlehandedly pulled the song off.
W.O.W

2007-06-14T21:32:00.000+08:00

Mircobio test today. Argh.. had alot of qstns im not too sure if is this or that..
wouldn be surprised if i failed.

it's kinda sucky la. this 2 weeks holiday is more or less a two week self study time. given that the CTs are right after this.

just realised that ive jus went the whole week (fine, the weekdays) with only ten bucks in my wallet. of course, other than the swashing of my atm card for one or two times when eating. to me i can consider it a real good achievement.

saw many things which i COULD have bought this week. considered begging for money on the streets but.....

he threatened to stab me with his light saber if i snatched his place =(

next week i'd be getting allowance... muahahahahhaha money money money... bag, shirt and tie... HERE I COME =D

2007-06-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

USA IS ONE SICK COUNTRY. WHOEVER BOMBED VINCE MCMAHON'S CAR DESERVES DEATH DEATH DEATH DEATH DEATH DEATH DEATH DEATH DEATH.

books vs YOU

2007-06-13T23:05:00.000+08:00

many ppl base their 1st impressions on purely who's pretty or handsome. to judge someone by their looks and not by their character, some would say it's rather shallow.

which brings me to the proverb "Don't judge a book by it's cover."

But you're not a book!

Let's say you're in a bookstore, looking for a book to read. What are the processes we go by in selection a book?

First is the cover, which can be compared to one's outer-appearance. If this person looks good, I'll go after him, like, duh.

Next is recommendations. Look at the book and sometimes they'll quote some magazine saying how this is "The Best Book EVA!!", or "The coming of the next LOTR", or something along the lines, which is again, very much like real life. You're judged, not on just the "cover", but on how others see you as well. Get good appraisals, and half the battle's won. For example, the shortest way to a girl's heart, is by making friends with her friends so that they can put in a good word for you: as one of my guys put it, "Keep your girlfriend close, keep her friends closer,"

Last is your "category", and how high up you are in it. Know how books have genres? "Sci-fi" lah, "Fantasy" lah, "Erotica" lah, "Chic Lit" lah, and all that? We, as people, are stuck in our own genre as well; the cliques, or people we hang out, and associate with speak volumes about us. And people have their preferred genres too, so watch where you place yourself on the shelf. Go and be a "best-seller", if possible.

So anyways...yeah...you're like a book, in many ways. And that's kinda unfair, no? The way you're judged based on things you can't really control MUCH.

BUT YOU'RE NOT A BOOK!

Open up! Be heard! Screw the cover of a book; I've seen gajillion books with butt-ugly covers (Harry Potter and The Philosopher's Stone, UK EDITION, BLEGH!), but their contents were amazing. The thing about books is they can't open themselves up, they can't scream out what's inside...BUT YOU CAN!

My point is: Don't be a book. Open up. Be heard.

Your pages speak volume, but unless you force people to read you, nobody's going to give a flying-damn

2007-06-13T01:35:00.000+08:00

been watching youtube to kill time this few days and came across this:

holy crap. this guy is f.u.c.k good.

2007-06-11T00:14:00.000+08:00

very tired. wont be posting anything today.

2007-06-09T20:57:00.000+08:00

A single rose, reminding them of,
Their commitment and never ending love.
Of their dreams, and the promises made,
And how their feelings will never fade.
The way he knew, right from the start,
That she was the one, who held the key to his heart.
How he stops at nothing, and goes the extra mile,
For one more chance, to witness her smile.
They pressed the rose, so it would withstand time,
To remind them of, the greatest love they will ever find.

2007-06-09T18:25:00.000+08:00

yesterday was kinda fun la.. haha.. supposedly we were supposed to give shipei her b'dae present.. and well.. JS got the honors to do it (again).

i'll try to get e pics from peilih on the step-by-step expressions when she got it and would try to update them asap.

after giving, we decided that the maths lecture was not worth listening to and thus me, js, vanessa, siew may, qiu miao and lihui stayed at the back to slack around.. mr maths lecturer got pissed that ppl were making too much noise and stormed off.

the whole situation got really chaotic (but fun in a way ba..) kinda reminded me of sec 2 life.. haha. very paiseh at 1st la.. suddenly everyone asking me to pose all e 5 连拍.. dun dare! =p only when vanessa come than at least got a little 安心 la! duno wad i did until everyone starting laughing like mad.

perhaps when ppl want me to do smthing they should try taking away my lanyard 1st ^^

after tt pon-ed jap class to follow joice and xj to queensway. nothing much we saw there ba.. but quite a good way to kill time.. finally got to eat e curry chicken rice there again! wahh like.. after super long la.. lols.. xj was like chionging from shop to shop lor.. than was telling joice "wahh xj normally walk man tun tun de... when shopping she super fast la!"

afterwards their friend came i decided to go meet 2c'ers at vivo. perhaps due to the earlier picture taking, me and ky decided to go camwhoring.

me and ky @ white dog cafe

w.h.e.r.e.s..o.u.r..F.O.O.D?!?!

im drunk on.... water.

no!! ky dun die!

after tt went to kim seng to play pool lor.. can see everyone was super rusty with their skills though.. but we still had fun and tt's e most impt i guess? =)

dao-ing at kim seng =/

ky left early.. she had to pack her bags for her trip.. we had this sad parting scene in the middle of the pool shoppe when we were hugging and stuff. lol!
awww.. im gonna miss her lots sia..

i luv u
just because of the fact that you are you =D

2007-06-09T03:56:00.000+08:00

2007-06-08T23:02:00.000+08:00

******************************************************
Sitting here alone under the pale moonlight
Wishing upon the stars that I could see you tonight
Wondering what you're doing right at this moment
Not having seen you today was such a torment
A lovely evening like this could've been lovelier
If I could spend it with you even for just a while
Holding your hands and feeling your arms around me
Wishing the moment would last forever
I could never forget that night we danced
I could still feel the closeness we'd had
We were so near that I couldn't stir
You had held me in such a trance.
How I wish I could tell you all these things
But it's just too hard for me to reveal my feelings
As for now I'll just content myself with this...
Dreaming and loving you from afar...

2007-01-28T22:51:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a hell of a long day. haha soo i guess this's gonna be a hell of a long post.

woke up at 11 to meet up with bun, james yeo and pan to lan at queensway. but as usual i was late.. this time 3 hrs late.
upon going there i realised that yeo's bro was there too. so jus play lor.. was waiting for mr faris razak to meet me there b4 proceeding to the stadium.

after playing for 2 plus hrs faris came.. and told me that got 2 extra tickets cause his friends pulled out last min >.<
in e end pan agreed to join us. adding the disclaimer that he was most likely gonna sleep during the match. we left the lan centre soon after and met rahman, who was late (dammit.. not as late as my 3 hrs) and we proceeded to lunch at the anchorage. we ate at seperate places. me and pan at subway and faris and rahman at kfc. no racism here! it's just that subway contains PORK. =p

NO PORK! NO PORK! RK HSE NO PORK!

k insider joke.

it was 630 when we left for the stadium. taxi of course. time went esp fast in the cab, cause it was soon 700. we were stuck in the jam when the taxi driver suggested we go by nicholl highway. well... y not? jus give it a try lor..
the gamble paid off and we were on our way before we knew it.

finally we reached the stadium at around 710. took a few photos and proceeded to check in our tickets.

SORRY VANESSA! i didn tell u for free tickets on time!

a slight rain came. but not enought to dampen the spirits of the fans. but just as quick as the drizzle started, it stopped. seems like the gods wanna watch this match too =D

well back to e story. we four joined literally thousands more in slowly crawling ourselves up the stairs. the whole place was JAMM PACKED!
walking up the stairs, we found ourselves washed from our feet from the effect of... where else better? THE MIDDLE OF THE KALLANG WAVE. it just swooshed past us and i couldnt help but joining in with the many others shouting away and stamping our feet to create the "surround sound" effect. the effect which only the 55000 ppl there would experience. and most likely never forget in the many years to come.

finally took a seat at the west stand. and the match started and went smoothly and for long periods, singapore dominated. must be cause of the fans! i mean... when else u see so many singaporeans gathered in a stadium?
just too bad that the stadium's gonna be teared down in july... SAD LAH HOR!

wah see shi jiayi and riduan playing the ball around in midfield was really a treat man. they two were perfect on that day. sending passes here and there. whooohooo!! go lions!
then the break came. the damn break that silenced the strong cheers. lewis' blunder.

everyone was like... WAD THE FUCK?!?!

but nvm lor.. play on.. rahman beside me like damn sian. but i told him to look at the arsenal match against man u. when they scored in 5mins. and told him.. "STILL GOT ALOT OF TIME DE!! RELAX!"
sure enough we equallised.

bloody hell i couldn see e goal properly sia. cause so messy. but jus celebrate lor LOL!

malaysia got one sub at my end doing free show when warming up for us! and we were giving names at him for fun! funny sia e supporters. behind got one say "WHO LET THE MONKEYS OUT?!" when he was doing star jumps. e most funny one was when he was SHAKING HIS ASS. "EH! HERE NOT THE PLACE TO DANCE LAH!" LOL!

much later on the whole bench joined him in warming up. "BALEK KAMPONG LA MALAYSIA! TADMAU GILA GILA SINI LA! LOSE ALREADY LA!"

don't you just LOVE this kind of supporters?

i do.

haha back to match. it ended 1 all in normal time. so it went into extra time.

didn see james pan sleep at all. >.< so much for sleeping in a FUCKING SOCCER MATCH. HAHAHA ITS IMPOSSIBLE.

no goals in extra time. although lewis almost let in one, we made a hell lot more chances. but scary la!
more scary! penalty shootout!!

i could barely watch. but no choice la wanna film the process.. will upload it in e next post. so jus watch lor.. but shaking like SIAO sia! crazy sia.. nervous!

seeing the scoreboard.

1-1

indra slotted the penalty
2-1

malaysia scored (BOOOO)
2-2

noh alam shah backed one
3-2

malaysia scored again (WAH THEY CAN SHOOT DE AH? DIDN KNOW)
3-3

mustafic!
4-3

lewis ALMOST saved this!!
4-4

GOGO GOAL!!!
5-4

yea.. scored again. sian
5-5

shi jiayi!
6-5

and it stayed this score. to singapore. the whole stadium, less a small grp of yellow, erupted into a chaotic chaos.
kallang has once again came to life.
i was elated. feeling something which words can never ever describe. something just WASHED over me and before i knew it, i was jumping up and down, shouting like a madman.

finally we left the stadium. and the rains came. wad timing. (gods watched match finish liao and must do their job liao)
so no time to take photos with the pitch on background

wad a time! wad an experience! and all for $2!

wed's the finals! anybody up for it?

im sure am =D

2007-01-26T22:38:00.000+08:00

is this wad ends the story
is this the final chapter?
why has fate planned this
why put me through this rapture?
maybe someday i'll get over it
mayb i'll forget u after time passes
but a long time it'll be,
for u to fade away and blend with the masses....

hope u like my poem =x

2007-01-24T00:43:00.000+08:00

i dunno wad to type here.

fill in my blanks.

be the light in the dark.

nothing else.

2007-01-21T03:02:00.000+08:00

somehow i feel like posting this song's lyrics =D

Insensitive
Jann Arden
How do you cool your lips, after a summer's kiss?
How do you rid the sweat, after the body's bliss?
How do you turn your eyes, from the romantic glare?
How do you block the sound
Of a voice you'd know anywhere?
1-Oh, I really should have known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual good-byes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face, told me
Maybe, you might have some advice to give on
How to be insensitive, insensitive ooh, insensitive
How do you numb your skin, after the warmest touch?
How do you slow your blood, after the body rush?
How do you free your soul, after you've found a friend?
How do you teach your heart
It's a crime to fall in love again?
Oh, you probably won't remember me
It's probably ancient history
I'm one of the chosen few
Who went ahead and fell for you
I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touchI fell too fast, I feel too much
I thought that you might have some advice to give,
On how to be insensitive(repeat 1)

2007-01-21T02:33:00.000+08:00

for the first time i do not wan anyone to read this post.
but im gonna post this anyway.
it's all crap talk so dun read this post if u do not wan.
dun waste your time.

i feel so wierd.

it's like ive done everything i could to like.. win u over?
but why is it that always i have to play the second fiddle to the rest? im not someone to be placed in the shadows.
why do i feel the curtain closing on me everytime i talk to u?
i have lots of questions to ask but i know they'd get rather standard answers.

everytime i see u.. i dunno wad to say la.
same as wad i feel right at this moment.

and the cup of coffee i drank jus now isn helping me much in sleeping.

2007-01-19T00:16:00.000+08:00

okay today was shit up.

heavy rain in e afternoon! than i thought "wah confirm lil ppl come eat de!"
sian in e end step into chatterbox 1st thing i had to do is set up a table for 45 ppl to eat. reservation.
than enter 22 other ppl. reservation.
CRAP.

hahaha but take alot of food sia today. E KOROPOK IS DAMN NICE!
AHHAHA!

helped chiu man take chicken! than i also take. haha e cook saw me sia! than tio scold >.<>.<

lazy to blog liao la. hahaha

kk bye!

2007-01-16T19:18:00.000+08:00

finally a post.

but not a very nice one.
cause i know mayb i was a little too much la. but well.. how would u feel if u jus wasted 50 bucks for nothing.
wad's more, u get a reply "u use your money to pay la! u got alot of money rite" when going to complain to e person tt started it off.
how?
pissed. yes i was. but wad's done is done and i cant really do anything else rite?

im not blaming u for forgetting. i never was. i was jus telling u that wasting e bloody 50 bucks is totally unnecessary. wad that it sucks.
and through e sms it was.. quite a bad tone.
u know me and u know me very well.
all i expected was a simple sorry.

2006-12-27T03:26:00.000+08:00

hahaha now's my birthday! okay bhb talk!
packing for chalet tml! tty!

2006-12-13T20:36:00.000+08:00

anyone got any nice dvds/vcds/cds/ds to lend? im gonna die of boredom anytime soon... haha

tml ky coming liao! haha

today brought james pan to apply for e job at chatterbox... but i dun really understand it.. so many ppl leaving than so many ppl wanna join back lol!
than we walk walk walk in e end nowhere to walk to liao so go home lor!

wonder hows james yeo.. like die alr. no reply from him de lol

im searching for courses to attend.. suen agreed to join me in spanish.. so must search for one more music class... dunno wad to attend! any suggestions?

2006-12-12T04:17:00.000+08:00

jus finished watching chicken little and lord of the rings- return of the king. haha not tired leh... dunno wad to do. so now blogging lor.

work today was slack. no really. slack. but kinda lots of excitement cause of e politics at play inter-staff. every man for himself. whooo nice. yesterday kana unreasonable liao than now tio somemore...

i wonder where's ky now. i wish her to be safe! nothing lost! haha!

bought a new book.. e 2nd book of the warcraft trilogy.. called the demon soul.
trud say she'd rather play the game than read e book.. but aha! reading brings u INTO the world itself. much better. haha

okay la i go play game liao. haha ciao!

oh yes to vanessa: hope mr -ney will stop pestering u! HAHA! and your rash to be gone! =p

2006-12-11T03:43:00.000+08:00

I MISS U KY!!

2006-12-06T01:26:00.000+08:00

ai seh! today got more money! haha

working life is so different from studies lor.. now i know why parents always say that studying life is much easier than work... kana push arnd and all e office (fine, in my case, kitchen) politics are... irritating. no seriously.
but some ppl make life easy la!

whoo shoik. today got person pay by $1000 cash for a $30 meal.
wah wanna show off dun show infront of me la! cause my heart to pain to be able to touch e cash... but cant own it.
but nvm la he give $10 tips (1hr 40mins of work). haha immediately put in pocket and get e hell outta there ah!!!

haha ^^
got one worker i dun like sia.. haha today jason me and trud all tio kan by some stupid malay waiteress.. hai! she almost made trud cry sia! i'll kill her if she really does that.

thinking of pon-ing work tml leh... actually today off day de but work.. so mayb tml i off myself lol! see 1st la... i wanna buy book to read and kill time also..
k la enuff of blogging liao.. haha.. wanna do other stuff liao!
bye!

2006-12-03T01:54:00.000+08:00

muahaha finally a post! (after like.. soooo long)
haha sorrie la seinorita wong! i alot of stuff happening la so difficult to find time to blog!

haha

2nd day of work! it's soooo hard to earn money! stupid waiter job.. haha end of day everywhere pain.

but working with friends so not too bad la i guess..

today e customers lesser sia! wah can slack abit! ABIT! fine a tiny bit.
but preparing chicken rice (which f***ing hell costs $20!) was kinda fun.. only till e aroma of e rice and chicken tickles your nose!
for e record we dun eat b4 work.
so would be damn hungry!

but no choice la hor.. wanna earn $$

=p
k la go sleep le. will blog again asap. but not too sure when!
bye!!
money money money money money!!
read between the lines pls =)

2006-07-23T11:17:00.000+08:00

im pissed off now but i dun think i wanna blog abt it.
later ppl come tag my tagboard bad stuff again..
bluddy hell... so tt's actually wad u think of a friend rite?
FINE

2006-07-20T09:50:00.000+08:00

wahahahaha im done with my f&n coursework so im blogging in school!
wah today got hair check.. but i came LATE and was hiding in the toilet all the while.. dun wanna get caught by singh la.. hahaha. after gotta run than sweat very irritating -.-

was talking to some gal in imuv yesterday. was searching than suddenly stumbled apon her homepage.. she's a nice gal la (but hey.. sry im taken alr [:).. than ended up talking till 2 plus.. these few days really chatting with alot of ppl i dunno sia.. mad man. hahahah.

and after ernest wong's talk.. i feel the strength returning to me.. a motivation to work as if there's no tml. i know it's crazy. but it's true.

okok anthony's coming to "inspect" on me again.. wah dunno y she keep picking on me today la!! hai.. gotta go!

cheers

2006-07-12T23:27:00.000+08:00

just realised i've not been blogging for the past few weeks..
mayb is cause too lazy or too busy ba..
hahaha still gotta complete my f&n sia..

anyway today super teen wkshp.
hahaha
damn funny la e instructors. it was really interesting and we could not stop luffing..
esp when lots of SICK jokes came out of them!!
omg man.. sick pupils+sick instructors= A WHOLE LOT OF FUN!

this "camp" is supposed to help us learn more about ourselves.
on the other hand,
i've actually learnt about the people around me.

how FLIRTATIOUS SOME PEOPLE can get.
how much of a bluddy bitch someone else can.
---------------------------------------------
on the bright side,
this course brought about the bright side among everyone.
the more outgoing and lighter side..

just hope i can memorise the 30 words la..
can get $10 leh.
who dun wan.

hahahahaha
today very tired la.
so im ending here.

i wonder what the sec 2s and 3s are doing right now....
wish them all the best and hope they have as much fun as i did with 2c 04 and 3d 05 in the sec 2 and 3 camps respectively..

k la gotta catch up on some work liao..
promise to blog some other time..

cheers

2006-07-09T06:06:00.000+08:00

omg now is 6 am and im still not sleeping! hahahahaha
was watching soccer and on the phone with suen..
germany won portugal 3-1 btw
really nothing better to do now so decided to blog abit..
k la. go liao bye

2006-06-26T20:11:00.000+08:00

im depressed right now.
what a difference a day made.
one moment we were friends e next.. well..
and its all my fault

i should not have went in the first place
since ive jus came back from a stayover
it was kinda out of the question to go
the irony is that i went.
i went specially so that i could see her.
but what exactily happened i cannot explain

mayb i was too tired
so as not to think properly
so as to get hot tempered and easily angered

but no point making up excuses now
its over
there's no turning back.

i really hope she knows how much she means to me
the fact that i cant afford to lose her
a moments folly and she's gone

gone from my life

im sorry

2006-06-25T18:50:00.000+08:00

last day of holidays today... and im finally blogging. hahaha.
com was okay quite a long time ago lah. hah but only lazy to blog..
cant wait to eat the new chicken parmesan sandwitch from subway!! =)
anyway gotta get serious over my work liao.. lest i die in Os.

yesterday i was damn tired. so mood naturally bad. pls understand i was not purposely showing you attitude of wadeva. its jus... nvm..

2006-06-25T18:49:00.000+08:00

wah now i dunno if she's angry with me.. nv reply my smses and wadeva

2006-06-09T21:34:00.000+08:00

im having a major dilemma here.. i wanna visit vanessa's shop tml but i tml really have NO time. should i sacrifice one for another? ohh man what should i do?
--knocks my head--

and women of times have a super ANIT-CLIMAX ending.
damn stupid.
and whats with everyone selling their shares back for $10!
hahahahaha ok tt was FUNNY.

world cup starts today..
im totally looking forward to it.
i have put my money on an Holland-Argentina final.
dun ask me why.. i jus got a feeling it'll be like dat.
for the 1st match

Germany 1- Costa Rica 1
my guess would be germany scoring the 1st goal in the world cup
but costa rica would come from behind, taking advantage of germany's inexperienced young defence and score.

soo yea.. cant be all talk. let the playing begin!!

for the world cup!
cheers

2006-06-08T21:14:00.000+08:00

yay another poem

Not seeing you, each passing day
Is like a rose, whitering away
Take my hand, let this start
Don't fade away, oh don't let us be apart
As wide as far is the sky
Is how much i love you, please don't say goodbye
And no matter whatever you do or say
I'd love you, in every single way
benjamin tan
------------------------------------------------

take note poems are a good way to express ones feelings =D

cheers

2006-06-08T21:03:00.000+08:00

wah ms chua ask me come online nv in e end

2006-06-07T22:22:00.000+08:00

X men!!!!

ok finally got to watch X men: the last stand today..

i was late for remedial.. and even (accidently)skipped physics. cause i didn know lah.. dun blame me. haha. anyway still late for my humans.. this remedial changed my life. after class i swore to myself to by hook or by crook win every single person in my horrible class in Os. to shut them up. im gonna show them that i CAN do it.

after that the boys were discussing where to go.. wanted to play lan but in e end didn.. cause no one wanted to go anywhere and suen wasn picking up her hp, i followed pinhan to tiong for lunch.. trud called me soon after to tell me that suen left her phone in her dad's car. so i called her home and discussed about the movie later.

it was about 130 when i left tiong for home.. it was rather late liao as the show starts at 250. we decided to watch it at clementi e cinema as both of us having mini financial crisis. haha. by the time i left it was already 215. i had to be there by 230. it was rather early..
or so i thought..
after missing the bus, i had to wait till 230 for the next one. damn SBS.
so in e end reached there jus in time. suen was already buying the tickets. her sis tagged along too.
the show interesting lah.. not bad but quite stupid.. so many pple die sia.. thanks to ms jean grey. haha. wah i didn know her power so bluddy pro sia. "CLASS 5 MUTANT SIA"
hahaha. even magneto and professor X can stop her...
whoohoo
angel was cool. but he like nv do much.. only save his dad. haha well i guess tt's the good part of having a mutant son i guess? =)
after the show we went to sweet talk to get drinks.
i left for gary's house after tt for maths tuition..
well gotta put in more effort liao...
trud smsed me saying she very sad cause this month she's spending like hell.. and she scared her phone bills.
i was kinda wondering.. if she dun sms her "ah gong", me, suen, and other ppl so much.. wont tt be enuff to contain her bills?!
well. 1000 free smses is more than enough.

actually nothing much liao lo
hahaha. ok ok im signing off liao.
gotta do some work b4 slping

cheers

2006-06-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

I'M TIRED

iiiimmmmmmmmmmm gooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnaaaaaaaaa ssllllllleeeeeeeeepppp

nite.

cheers

2006-06-05T00:18:00.000+08:00

ok now for today.
today met trud for some trial thing at (CENSORED)
suen also came along.
after that we went proceeded to (CENSORED)
but we couldn find the way.. how leh? trud called the person in charge and we managed to find our way in the end..
there spent most of the time in the (CENSORED) and slacked around lor.. cause we also nv bring anything..

(SO SORRY THE REST IS CENSORED CAUSE OF SOMEONE WHO IS TOO PAISEH ABOUT IT)
XD

cheers

2006-06-04T23:16:00.000+08:00

yestd was damn busy so didn manage to blog.
so this is yesterdays one.

well.. today went to play lan in the morning with jia han, clement and kanta.
james was supposed to come but the usual reason.. "MOTHER FUCKED UP"
much to the amusement of me and jia han.

lan was the usual la.. nothing much to talk about it i guess. hmm.. perhaps a lil of me and jiahan's conversation on the way to the lan shoppe...

jh: james nv come today..
me: eh? y leh.. i tot he very enthu one? oh ya..
both: MOTHER FUCKED UP.
jh: hahaha yea lor..
me: as always
jh: yea lor.
me: anyway.. lim also nv come.. they two ah.. anyone of the two come will make the teams inbal one
jh: ya true.. lim come e team sure lose. james e team sure win.
me: wad if both in same team leh?
both: LOSE!
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

after tt i went to meet truddy and sing suen after their shopping.. truddy had some time to spare to do some shopping with me.
we went down to cck lot1.
cause there had her SASA for her to buy stuff in.
the following was wad we saw and wanted to buy:
1) hp pouch
2) hp strap
3) hp holder
(note this is for her NEW PHONE)
4)eye cream
5) eye patch
6) eye mask
(note this is for her eyes!)

trud dared me to squeeze into a kiddie ride and have a go at it for $2.
NO WAY.
she raised the reward to $5 but it was still a no for me.

disney stuff are damn ex. so she had to consider again and again if it was really nessary to get a stupid hp disney strap for $7.50

in the middle of shopping her uncle called to tell her that she could go with him to get her phone next week liao. ohh man WAS SHE ELATED! suddenly her enthu-ness came back but it was kinda late liao.. so no choice had to head home.

like dat lor.. this wk going back really late.. gotta learn how to slp early liao.. haha

cheers

2006-06-01T23:38:00.000+08:00

one word.
TIRED
gotta warn that this post might be abit long so if ure in a hurry read it some other time =)

school was a bore. YES AGAIN.
POA was not bad la.. must say.
cause learn new thing.

afterwards went to the MRT to meet trud.
to buy $30 worth of items.
her super belated present u see.. tt time we had no time to go shopping.

so we decided to head down to marina sq to see wad to get there.
there, we mostly window-shopped and didn really buy anything.
(wait. we DIDN'T buy anything!)
trud was having a hard time rmbing who she went out with

trud: er.. was it u that i went out with tt time?
me: dunno.
trud: oh ya. not u. hahahaha
me: ...

haha everyone seems to be getting a case of short term memory
me too cause i kinda forgot i was supposed to get something.
and that the particular thing couldn be found in marina sq.

anyway trud was faced with her 1st challenge in shopping
to choose between a 19.90 bag and a 20.90 bag.
one dollar difference, the 19.90 bag was a LITTLE smaller.
trud pointed out that small bags are kinda better.
but in e end we didn get either of the bags,
choosing to proceed on rather than wasting too much time.

we pondered on the idea of going to kTv.
but we dropped the idea too.
after walking the whole of marina sq (YES I MEAN THE WHOLE PLACE), we decided to head to suntec for more shopping.
apparently we found nothing nice there. so we loitered around carrefour to get some sushi.

CAN U BELIEVE WE ACTUALLY HAD DIFFICULTY IN FINDING THE ESCALATOR DOWN FROM THE 2ND FLOOR?!
well. believe it.
look like we too long nv go suntec liao >.<
got the sushi and headed out of suntec.
we went to wait for the feeder bus that brings us to the train station after deciding to head down to bugis.

and gawd WAS THE WAIT LONG!
no im serious.
and what's more, the bluddy bus was freaking packed so we had to SQUEEZE our way in.
the train to bugis was no better.
but as trud predicted, most ppl alighted in bugis so we could alight smoothly

in bugis, we shopped arnd for a while
trud wanted to get a watch
and that was exactily wad we did.
spending $10 bucks on her watch. ($20 more trud!!)
it was not bad la.. no really.. for ten bucks it's actually quite a bagain!
next we proceeded to zinc, and was greeted with 101 types of bags.

trud found a bag similar to the 19.90 bag we saw in marina.
true enuff, it was also valued 19.90
but the bigger version was 22.90 ($2 more than e one at marina)

trud expressed her desire to get a new wallet even though she has one new one alr. (present from jacq for b'dae)
she also wanted to get some slippers.
by that time, i can say that my legs were about to BREAK.
how shopping can cure a gals tiredness man.

she remembered about a california fitness offer paying $20 for 6wks
wow i couldn believe it.
so i enquired lor.

they were so kind to give us a tour of the gym.
we had a real tough time finding the place, going to raffles hospital(?!)
and finally realising that the bluddy office tower was right where we 1st started

gotta say the facilities there is real good.
and before we knew it, it was deciding time..
for 1st visitors like us, we had to pay absolutely nothing for the starting fee. which was $272 (i think)
but we had no cash on hand.

and we didn even ask our parents about it.
C.FITNESS!! HOW COULD YOU GUYS DO THIS TO US?!?!?!?!
so we had to sadly leave the place, knowing if we wanna come back to enroll we gotta pay more. (about 100% more. no kidding.)
trying to put on a smile to lift our spirits, my mood was rather torn when i saw tt disappointed look worn on truddy's face.

but it proved shopping not only cures tiredness, it also cures moodyness.
in no time, we were back happily shopping.
trud decided to save her $20 for another trip for shopping.
worn out, we both proceeded home.

wow wad a day. im totally shacked out.
and im going to sleep.
tata

cheers

2006-05-31T21:48:00.000+08:00

i cant repair for NUTS
hahaha U KNOW WAD AM I TALKING ABOUT EH?
only YOU know!

hahaha.
tml out! =)

cheers

2006-05-30T23:07:00.000+08:00

1st day of hoils!
sucked.
hahahaha
no la quite okay actually.

e morning sucked and tt's a fact.
but after tt went swimming with my friend again.
wah my friend damn fast. (or is it i slow?) swim like no one's business very pro sia.
but still very unfit.

this month i set a goal to get fitter x)
its a MUST.

than after swim had to rush back to meet ian
show him around ghim moh
and pei him return his vcds lor..
anyway he gonna shift in soon liao.
so can play soccer with him.
one extra person =)

*btw e tag by trud is a gae siao one. confirm it with her if u wan. lol

cheers

2006-05-29T23:16:00.000+08:00

A DAY WASTED
wah today wanted to watch xmen3
but ppl so uncoordinated
until in e end cant watch.

im not pissed
im not pissed
im not pissed
im not pissed
(and its so obvious i am)

in e end went to play lan >.<

xMen dun wanna watch hor
over e hedge so enthu.

I DUN UNDERSTAND YOU MAN
Fcuk

~~cheers~~

2006-05-28T00:10:00.000+08:00

2 more days to chinese Os!

i sincerely wish everyone taking thie Os good luck and all the best.
In particular Hawker, KaiYing, Truddy, James Yeo and Benjamin Ng.
Why them in particular u ask. I'll explain.
Hawker: he talked to me in the afternoon and said that he was rather scared that he would fail his chinese. Now he's even staying in Ka Lun's house to study chinese (and play a lil). Wow. Just to savage that few marks to get a good grade. I take my hat off him, a shadow of the slacker Hawker. Wish him all the best =)
Kaiying: She wants so much to get into a JC of her choice and chinese would definately get her a good grade. Moreover it would be a gret help for her to get a good grade at the 1st attempt, saving her more time to focus on other subjects for e next half of the year.
Truddy: She studying so hard for chinese now.. so yea.. gd luck!
James Yeo: wow. can get 60 for chinese. pei fu pei fu! hope he can maintain the good results for chinese in the os!
Ben Ng: well.. he lost to james yeo! outside, he says he dun care, but deep inside.. yea i know he gives a hell lot of a damn for this chinese! so GOOD LUCK!

All in all, good luck to all u ppl and those specific ppl i mentioned!
=)

cheers

2006-05-26T20:59:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL'S OUT!
usual boring day today.
wah na beh.
wan say this wk got hair check.. scare me like dunno wad sia.. everyday comb hair all e way up. haha. sucks man than in e in dun have. sucks sucks sucks.
morning assembly was one of e longest ive had
and james yeo was looking at his crush all e way..
wow how can love affect a guy sia.
to think i was like dat sometime back...
anyway report card came back.
not bad not bad.
haha. afterall, its e Os that counts?
this report card is NOTHING man.

after school went to play lan.
than realised that i had to meet my friend for swimming
so rushed home and got my swimming stuff and went to meet my friend.
and rushed out again.
(WHY AM I ALWAYS RUSHING?!?!?!)

the swim was good.. swam 20 plus laps and felt damn tired.. long time since ive been exercising liao lo.. sooo it felt good =)
the pool had quite a lot of ppl in it so had to try to avoid crashing into them while swimming..

after the swim, we headed up.
and it started raining..
it was light at 1st
and we made the worst mistake by deciding we should wait for a while
and it rained heavier
and heavier
and heavier
shit.

we had no choice. frien's family was coming back soon and had to go back ASAP.
so we ran lor..
using our TOWELS to shelter us!
haha.. one towel was WAY TOO SMALL so we shared the bigger one..
sucks man.. in e end still wet like dunno wad..
haha and still had to take a stupid AIR CON BUS.
was literally shivering in there..

so yea.. f&n prac o lvls got 21/22. haha ya damn happy man.
suen's sibilings have watched X men 3 liao.. and reports that it's real good.
cant wait to watch it man.
still got da vinci.. dunno when ky watching.
haha
but good thing keith they all haven watch yet.
can sneak in with them. ;p
well, its good knowing ppl older than u ^^

FOR THE HOLIDAYS!
cheers

2006-05-25T21:38:00.000+08:00

soo... taylor hicks won american idol
yipee?

2006-05-24T22:56:00.000+08:00

wad a nice day today..
again started e day thinking how bad it might be.
think of it..
1)high chance of hair check day and my hair is... er..
2)F&N o lvl practical
3)Maths file to be handed in and my file is.. er...
4)bluddy sec 4 and 5 sports carnival

was really afraid of wad would happen if ever i was caught for my hair and because of that would have lesser time to complete my f&n stuff..
of course, i came well prepared.
tried a combination of wax and clay and found out this theory:
Wax+Clay=STRONGHOLD!
and jus slapped them onto my hair and combed it in a side parting all e way up till it didn look long at all.

all my effort was unfortunately furtile as i later found that there was no hair check today.
so all attention and fear focused on the f&n prac.
all generally went well.. although i had to think on my feet when i realised i forgot to bring the soup base for the meatballs. (changed the recipe to roasted meatballs topped with a tomato cheese sauce which tasted heavenly) and when the ice cream.. well, didn turn out to be frozen.(which i shaved some white chocolate onto the mixture and sprinkled some milo powder and some chocolate chips on top and called it my own CHOCOLATE FUDGE. haha)
otherwise.. well its not bad.

next was maths. it was simple. there was no maths lesson today. -.-

found out that the last period xusu took over physics lesson.
so we cl(b) students had nowhere to go.
had to stay in class lor..
all, i mean ALL cl(b) students were sleeping through the class.
including me :p

than was e sports carnival.
dreaded it. esp since yang hai pushed me into volleyball when all i know is how to kick a ball.
but in e end all e gae siao ppl in volleyball.
and dundee volleyball team could have been renamed 2c'04 volleyball team.
consisted of: me, clement, pinhan, yanghai, suen and kaiying.
all 2C-ers worx
how?
it went something like this...
---------------------------------------
cederic (v-ball teacher): ay, either u join an event or u run
yang hai: BEN!! I ALR TELL U JUS NOW LIAO HOR. I PUT YOUR NAME DOWN LIAO LE HOR!
me: ... ok la ok la.. go la go la..
me: clement.. come with me go play leh
clement: dun wan la!
yh: pin han! i also say u leh!
ph: dun wan la aiyo.
me: suen come la.. will be fun
suen: hmmz.. i join if crap join!
ky: yea we all go la!
cle: ok la go go.
ph: ok ok but i dunno how to play leh!
EVERYONE (without pinhan): WE ALSO DUNNO HOW TO PLAY?!!!
ph: ..
yh: nvm nvm! i teach u some basics later on.. (btw those basic teachings never came)
me: ok.. hey all 2c ppl leh
ky: oh ya hor! all 2C leh! lets go do 2C proud!
me: yea.
cle: yea.

so off we went to play VOLLEYBALL
THE BALL WAS FAR FROM A VOLLEYBALL
THE RULES WAS FAR FROM VOLLEYBALL RULES
ALL OF US PLAYED RUBBISH, WHICH IS FAR FROM VOLLEYBALL
and in e end we lost to what kelvin described as a "team of betray house de ppl"
hahaha.
but we ACTUALLY managed to clinch a respectable 2nd!
yay
yay
YAY

it was really gay la.
we jus hit here hit there than poof! we win!
hahahaha.
against strathmore was funny
we were really certain we were getting trashed upside down
than actually e score read 9-8.
we turned the tide and won the game 10-9
i admit i was ESTATIC.
i guess i might have looked stupid celebrating the win

but in e end alexandra house beat us.
in 2 hard fought matches
e 1st match was in normal league.
we lost them by 2 points

than came the title decider
the match which decided the 1st and 2nd as both houses were tied.
dunno if its tiredness or kan-ciong-ness.. we anyhow hit our balls here and there.
so lose lor.. haha but in e end still get silver.
haha

than went to play lan.
than came back home
than realised that i left my f&n stuff in e lan shoppe
than went back to collect and at e same time shun bian ran some laps
yup
tt's all for today lor.
haha

cheers

2006-05-23T21:37:00.000+08:00

haha ok now preparing for tml's F&N practical exam..
so yea.. cant blog tt much.
tml write about today..
sry!
=)

cheers

2006-05-22T20:52:00.000+08:00

yay top class in eng =)

wad a shock i got when the results read 54 for english
it turned out to be a mistake..
so kana added more marks =)

anyway.. today hawker and weiliang got into a fight,
leaving the rest of the class opened mouthed.
jason, ian, tuan jiaw, faris and some other boys tried to break them up.
but their efforts proved furtile. after breaking them up, they exchanged blows again.
and again
and again
and again.

it appears that weiliang was in a real horrible mood thanks to his english marks.
and hawker, not knowing his situation, called him in his mum's name
obviously pissed off, weiliang started blasting at hawker.
there was a short exchange of words before weiliang landed a punch on hawker.
well, the rest was history.
i could tell that everyone was rather shocked.
even the normal class next door came to see the action.

anyway after about 10 mins later they made up
and everything was back to normal

after physics we went to hall for assembly.
some sort of kTv competition was on..
zul sang tong hua. it was damn funny
they were not bad.. but as usual, welson won.
mr tay came for a guest performance.
wow i didn know he had such a good voice.

anyway after tt me clement lim and peanut went to red hill for lunch.
lim had his bag held up by a "f***ed up teacher" who confiscated his bag and his wallet as a punishment for talking in class
lim said that he only talked "a little bit"
who's side u're on, u decide.
clement received a call from his chi teacher too.
it appears that he happily skipped class and ran off.

and his teacher wasn happy.
so he was sabohed by someone in his class who told his teacher his phone no.
(it was found out later that weiming was the culprit.)
and so.. yea.. both of them had to go back.

james is still recovering from his injury.
as a result of jumping off the 1st storey of the sentosa watchtower.
ouch.
so he took a cab home. and i followed clement and lim back to school.

clement passed his compo to the teacher
but lim was still held up
lim's teacher: I told u 530 rite? now is only.. 4 coming to 5 only. come back at 530 than i give u. ok?
lim: .... ok sorry.

i later learnt that lim was cursing him deep inside =)
who wouldn?
so yea..tt's about it..
i'll end this post here then..

cheers

2006-05-21T20:57:00.000+08:00

2c 04 RAWKS.. not happy? sue me then
to whoever that hates 2c, i'd got nothing to say.
some say tt the more the hated something or somebody is, the stronger it is as ppl are JEALOUS of how strong they are.

DOES IT SOUND FAMILAR?
2c were the best class in the sec 2 cohort.

yes?
its a fact.
i will not get angry or blow my top over this small stuff..
dun wanna history to repeat itself.
so yea..

cheers

2006-05-21T16:07:00.000+08:00

ok time for yesterday's post..

20-May-2006
today went to lim's place to play.
was supposed to be there at 11 plus but had to meet my sis to pass her MI carnival tickets which she left at home first
so ended up reaching at 1.

By the time i reached they were finishing up the Mission Impossible 3 disc
which i felt it was rather boring..
by then we learnt that Ringo and Jia Han wasn coming
so we decided against the idea of playing tennis
(for the simple reason tt there was 3ppl only)
and opted to go swmming instead.

swimming was generally fun
there was really lil ppl in e pool and we were creating a hell of a havoc
throwing ourselves into the pool etc etc.

after tt we went to the suana
god it was HOT HOT HOT
and we were sweating all over
lim felt it was nessary to get cooled so he jumped into the pool
oh god that was the largest splash ive ever seen in my whole life
aha but me and zi rong was sharp. we noticed he brought his towel into the pool with him
zirong: eh ben, look at lim.. wad's that blue thing (laughing)
me: holy crap. its his freaking towel!
zirong: hahahahahahahahaha
me: HEY LIM! YOUR TOWEL IS WET HUH?
lim: shit.

afterwards we headed to the jacuzzi
chatted for a bit and went to get dried
we headed up soon after that.

next was lunch and more movies
we watched the 40yr old virgin and gawd it was sick.
but it was really funny
hahahaha
"fuck u, im not a bangla! im fucking from orlando, this is a fucking orlando accent."
"fuck u, this is a free country, i can smoke outside!"
(another man)"yes yes... JUST GET THE FUCK OFF"

hahaha omg and it was sick.

after tt it was rather early still go we decided to watch one more movie
Doctor Dolittle 3 came up.
but we only watched for 1/2 of the show before we had to go.
zirong's dad was waiting for him liao..

so likedat lor.. we parted ways from there.
it was coming to 7 by then
wow time passes really fast when u're having fun.

after tt i read a book till i slept.
yup tt's abt all for yesterday lol.

cheers

2006-05-20T23:06:00.000+08:00

today lazy to blog.. too tired.. tml i blog about today and tml.. =)
leave u with a song

NE-YO SO SICK
Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin' you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

cheers

2006-05-20T01:47:00.000+08:00

He's happy but very, very tired today

wow, i just came back from cycling with trud. and im really tired yet hyper!

results were okay
subs i underperformed: maths and accounts
subs i performed above expectation: sciences(!), geog, chinese
not received: ss and english
Thank God for them
without him i cant imagine how it would be

so after sleeping through 1period of chinese, 2periods of accounts and one half periods of humans, school was over

waited for jeremy lim to get back his accounts paper
then decided to go to tiong with him to have lunch.
so there were we standing and waiting at the bus stop for the 33 bus
but suddenly she walked past me with her friends
and was clearly going to be in the same bus as me
i really didn know wad to do
so i pushed lim back with me to school

where we went to the bb court to play some soccer

then trud called my hp
asked if i wanted to join her and suen to swim
having nothing really better to do, i agreed

after rushing home and rushing out again,
i reached the mrt station of bukit batok
and after abt 15 mins of wait i met up with them

so there we were walking to the bukit batok CC
(ANTI-CLIMAX 1)
only members could enter the pool. We were not members
trud: wah fuck man. fuck la
suen: aiyooo.. see?! i told u le trud!
me: ....

after recovering from the big setback,
we had to decide on another fun place.
QUICK.

(ANTI-CLIMAX 2)
We went to the library in west mall.

i found a good "left behind" book and started reading

trud found some love novels and started reading

suen took out an a maths book,a soduku book, foolscape paper and a pencil,
and started doing soduku.

after 5mins she had enough of soduku so she went off to do her a maths
(wow. its after exams and revision?!?! OMG!)

this took about from 5pm to 735pm
until sky all dark can liao

so after we sent suen home me and trud were left alone.
initially we decided to go swimming followed by going cycling
but it was getting rather late so we cancelled the swimming.
we headed to the market near trud's home to grab some dinner
trud had fried kuay tiao and i had some chiken rice
TRUD WANTED MORE FOOD!
but in e end she decided against it, opting for 2 bottles of soya bean milk at the nearby NTUC

after which we proceeded to her house
no one was home yet
we spent quite a short time there and went out to unlock the bikes
one lock was jammed, but mighty trud managed to free it
lol
all credit to her! =)

so there went our journey.
we decided on going to suen's house and back
(bukit batok - bukit timah - bukit batok)

i took a bike (which was the BIKE FROM HELL.. tell u abt it l8r)
and she took one.
we had some trouble putting the lights on at 1st
but it was soon ok and we set off

(ANTI-CLIMAX 3)
after half the journey, trud rmbed that there's a shorter cut to suen's house

i was rather breathless by that time and really felt like dropping dead on the spot (ok im really unfit)
but i was cheered up and motivated after trud rolled over a BROOM
(take note: BROOM)
and started screaming! we had a good laugh.

75% of the journey and the bike from hell started to show signs of mischief
the gears were going all wrong.
it needed serious oiling
THE SEAT WAS LOOSE
the seat was loose and a hard part of it was jutting out. hurting something in between my legs big time.

trud seemed to take great pleasure in my suffering
but i know she joking only la
haha

in e end, after much effort, we reached the checkpoint: suen's house.
trud and suen communicated through shouting at each other from the window.
by the time i was really dehydrated and was happily gulping down water
suen said i walked funny. must be cause of the bluddy seat.

so we continued back after around 15mins of chatting.
it was 10plus.

trud was so kind to offer a change of bikes
an offer which i couldn object to.
God bless her.

so we went to 7-11 to get a couple drinks and rushed back
time was running out for us. we had to get back asap.

half way we stopped again and changed bikes
trud couldn stand the horrible seat of the bike

3/4 way we stopped yet again and swapped bikes YET AGAIN
this time i couldn stand it. anymore of this bike and i was going to risk my father's day

a race to the finish we did well and reached her place at around 1120pm
i quickly got all my stuff and headed down
trud sent me down.

i was scared tt i missed the last bus so trud asked me to run
so i ran to the bus stop after saying farewell to her

1st min at busstop: ok.. bus's gonna come soon
2nd min:why the hell isn the bus coming?!!?
3rd-5th min:ok shit i think i missed the last bus.
6th min: (stands up and flags a cab) uncle, ghim moh road please!

wow all this really happened in around 6 mins
i think i was really too scared la.. dun wanna get charged midnite fare.

and in e end i reached home, all safe and sound, but not exactily in one piece..
today is a day to remember. really, it was one of my best experiences with truddy. one for the memories

cheers

SOCCER

2006-05-18T18:47:00.000+08:00

Wad a match!
ok so it started off with me forcing myself to wake up at 230am
for Barcelona against Arsenal
which arsenal lost 2-1
trust me i almost cried when i saw e barca players with tears in their eyes
they deserved it and congrats to the champs league 2006 winners
Barcelona FC
and credits to their worthy opponents Arsenal
went down to 7-11 for some tit bits before the match
damn i think i woke up some ppl when i celebrated with eto'o on the 76th min
GOALLLLLLLLLL!!!!!
and another shout 5mins later when baletti sliced in the winner
it was quite sad when the camera flashed at ashley cole after the final whisle was blown..
he had tears in his eyes, trying to control himself from crying infront of his home fans
the arsenal supporters, oh so hyped when giant Campbell headed the 1st goal in, were also reduced to tears. grown men.
and there was the estatic barcelona players,having a radience of happiness surrounding them.
and the barca fans, all donned in their purple and red jerseys, having a rush of emotions going through them.
how i wish to be in the stadium with them

is soccer that emotional? wad is soccer?
to many ppl its jus a game with 22(-2goalies+1ref and 2 linesmen)millionares running for a stupid ball.
to many more people its more than that. its about the estasy of winning, the agony of losing.
its all about the controversies, those bad decisions by refs, dives by players, foul play
its all about beautiful goals that one can only dream of doing coming to past, about sharp strikers who never fail to create havoc in the opposing half, and solid defenders who always stand up to the occasion to be there to stop them
its all about playmakers whose vision could lead to a goal or a miss, goalkeepers whose hands are considered the most precious ones of the team, at least for the 90 mins.
its all for club, its all for country.
some say soccer means life and death
but i can assure u, it's much more than that.

cheers

2006-05-17T20:30:00.000+08:00

wow. wad a day i had. and fun's exactly the word to describe it! didn expect it to be so good though..
the story starts from me waking up from a not-so-plesant sleep, expecting a day similar to e last.
lay on my bed for about 45mins b4 forcing myself up. had to go to harbour front to meet 2c ppl to sentosa.
but lo and behold this turned out to be fun.
met clement, ky, lim, xian liang, zi rong, and gregory at macs 1st.
trud and james came sometime later.
followed by raynard (1hr later)
went to siloso beach first.. and bought a volleyball then proceeded on.. suddenly (wow) met 4c ppl and ended up playing volleyball with them. (FOR 2C 04!hahaha)and unfortunately we lost (awww) after tt we took a tram back to palawan.
there we met jacq, pris, christine and kanta, who came late
clement raynard and james was left out as a result of taking too long to get their stuff in 7-11 and had to run all e way to catch up with our tram! lim me and xian liang had a good time taunting them. haha.
went to the island of the palawan beach.. and played iceman.. fine stop thinking we're happily catching and running around and we're 15! come on it's fun. haha. we ran and ran and ran and ran (damn this is good exercise!)
after a long day, we finally had our dinner at pastamaina (after much condersideration) dinner was nice.. well, pasta's always nice! lol. and had a mini fear factor then... littered the garlic bread with lots of stuff.. and put money down to who dares to eat it! ok la my mum wanna use the com liao.. gotta go.. elaborate sometime later... lets end off with this statement 2c 04 rawks!
make no mistake about it =)

He had a bad day

2006-05-16T19:34:00.000+08:00

i dun wish to talk about how am i today.. guess this poem sums it up.

Woke up in the middle of the night

And realised that the situation's not at all right

Is she gone? Is she coming back?

Or have i jus been placed back on the rack?

Memories oh so dear to me

Have suddenly became a distant memory

Remember those conversations we had

Remember when we talked about this and that?

Why then, tell me why has it come to end this way

Please come back, please, i say
Benjamin Tan

This can become a mini poem blog la. haha...

2006-05-15T20:17:00.000+08:00

today have my poa paper... generally okay but quite wierd la.. answers got alot of As... so i dunno liao..
anyway soccer today! fell down! the floor was so damn slippery. than went to commence room to slack! wow haha.. xu su actually let me in la! so here i was sittin beside mitcher and talking away.. and enjoying the air con at the same time too la!!! haha
hai. im getting more and more confused as the day passes... wad is happening to me.. y am i thinking of letting go this gal so dear to me? is it me or... forget it..
why does this always happen to me?

2006-05-11T20:40:00.000+08:00

wah wah wah.. couldn blog cause mum was hogging e com for her da chang jin! wad's e world coming to man. hahaha. anyway these few days been busy revising stuff.. lol.. so couldn really blog lah.. all my papers are not bad la.. if u were wondering.. haha cl(b) is e most fun lo! 25 mins into e paper and everybody's sleeping le! haha anyway sent truddy back home todae.. worried she cannot carry her stuff all e way back to bukit batok lor.. lol so just tagged along. haha and guess wad. VANESSA WAS TAKING E SAME TRAIN AS US! haha. wah see her so happy liao lor. haha. ok la mum wants to watch liao.. ttyl then!

2006-05-07T22:10:00.000+08:00

wah i jus woke up.. ZZzzz from 5 till now... die liao la gotta study. mitcher jus asked me online if i still like truddy and if i wanna stead with her. hahahaha. tt's like... hmmmmmmm... a definate no? haha. k back to studying liao lo. tml no school so can study somemore. little conversation between me and mitcher:
-Simplicity says:
next 4 days rucial
-Simplicity says:
crucial
| | panda™ | | jus pretend to hug u till u're here says:
ya lor
| | panda™ | | jus pretend to hug u till u're here says:
all can die one
-Simplicity says:
nex week only 3 days?
-Simplicity says:
tues , wed thurs nia r
| | panda™ | | jus pretend to hug u till u're here says:
yea fri is e vesak day ma
| | panda™ | | jus pretend to hug u till u're here says:
than mon we no need to go
| | panda™ | | jus pretend to hug u till u're here says:
so 3 days only lor
-Simplicity says:
3 days
-Simplicity says:
crucial
-Simplicity says:
sibei jia lat
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
now u can see everybody is putting in their outmost effort for MYP. i think i also better do e same. i must not lose out. i think i can do it. chelsea vs newcastle starting soon.. dun bother watching now.. wah LIFESTYLE section of straits times e chew on it got say some teacher in indo punished his/her students by forcing them to watch porn for not passing up their hw. wah i got this kind ot teacher i happy liao lo. haha. i think other ppl will agree with me sia. everybody dun hand up together! yay! hahahaha. more of a reward than a punishment. hahah. sia la everybody doing work.. not much ppl online and to think im still happily blogging! hmmmm i think im off to study le. k byebye

2006-05-07T21:39:00.000+08:00

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|	16%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Religious	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Hedonism	\|\|	10%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|	16%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	57%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|	16%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%

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